The difference between a failure and a loss...

I bet that many people out there have already thought about this, but I decided to call it explicitly (pointing out the obvious).

People have told me throughout the last years to abandon hope. They keep telling me that banging on a door that no one will ever open from inside is futile and pointless and I should move on.

And then what?

Then I will move along, making small steps of evolution, taking my sweet time. Then I will seek out for people that want me for what I am. How wrong can this sentence be? "What I am". Do you really change yourself? No. You can change habits, professions, points of view, behaviors, but not ourselves. I'll tell you why : Because it's "me" that is taking the call for change, thus taking the necessary actions to reapply things for my benefit is still a part of me, thus it will still be me at the end. Confused? The caterpillar will still be the same for itself, even after it become a butterfly. Surely it will gain better looks and functionality (aka flying) but no one can say that the caterpillar dies and something else takes over through the stage of transformation...

Why the long parenthesis? For pointing out the obvious between a fail and lose. "Loss" is the result of wasting effort without gaining the result you wanted to. "Fail" is around the same thing, but one can say that you lose when you ultimately get in an unwanted result after trying your best and fail be a wasted effort in a smaller scale.

So, I can accept my consistent failure, but I do not accept my defeat. Not before I am 100% sure that I gave out my all. No...